♥bring me flowers&lets talk for hours♥

it hurts sucks sometimes.

if i had guts, and if i wasn’t so scared to get close to you again. if i wasn’t still kinda being repatched up… if i wasn’t hurt in the beginning things between us would’ve been fine. that one awkward week ruined everything! we got into a fight, there were dumb rumors everywhere, you acted like an imature douche bag, just gahh! everything was terrible. that one week ruined it all!

today is monday, it was our movie night with mike. and it didn’t happen. but in truth it wouldn’t have happened regardless on account of, you were supposed to be in texas by now. but things changed. and i’m sorry! target would’ve been fun and perfect too cheer you up to sweetie or even just driving around like we did before. idk, i’m just sorry i couldn’t be with you tonight like you asked….

gahh! tonight just sucked! especially since i got into a fight with my parents and everything. quite lovely if you ask me! sike! it was soo stupid, and i’m not trying to blame it on you or anything but this time you were kinda their target accuser! RIDICULOUS!

i just wish we could go back a week in time and fix it—do it over again. make it worth while. but the upside is, you didn’t break your promises. we still got more time i suppose…. the question is, are you gonna try and keep those promises or let them disappear? it’s up to you….

<3

Dear you,

i’m excited for you, and i know you’re gonna do great things! have fun, and know that i’ll be praying for you! i lied, and i promise i’ll miss you.i’ll make sure to never forget those things we did together and the nights we stayed up for hours just talking. i promise that i won’t be bitter anymore, and i’m totally serious. things are gonna be better now! but things will be different when you get back. four months are gonna go by fast, it’ll be great! can’t wait to chill and go out to dinner for my birthday when you’re home:P haha well have a blast and behave:P

laterr loserrr,

-Me